expressing self-hatred in several forms
So the start to my weeklong staycation has gone even worse than I imagined. Amount of studying accomplished? Nil. None. Zero. Maybe even less than that. My excuse (and it is, mostly an excuse because none of this actually precludes me from studying) is that I am in pain. Not the most excruciating pain I’ve [...]
ugh
Big sigh of relief. We FINALLY received final approval yesterday and are set to close as scheduled on Wednesday. Work was sort of crazy yesterday for various reasons, a lot of which was related to me trying to clean everything up before my one week “vacation.” It sucks because I REALLY need this time off [...]
neener neener neener
So I have this scathing letter to our underwriter all typed up and ready to post as soon as we finally *knock on wood* close on our loan. But since a little part of me is seriously afraid that somehow she will stumble upon my website, find the note berating her and then deny us [...]
random bullet point blogging…it’s come to this
I think one of the reasons I find myself unable to post anything positive is because I tend to post at the end of the day, when I’m all pissed off from work and stewing in bitterness, frustration and depression. Remember in December when I was taking the CFA and I was all, for woe, [...]
i can’t think of a good title so…there…
I am going to try really, really hard not to be a total downer today. Although, I must say, this weather is killing me. Why the $*#& is it still raining?? In MAY? It seems like a lot of people around here are either sick or suffering from prolonged allergies because it just won’t freaking [...]
i almost passed out several times today
Maybe it’s because I’ve pretty much felt like crap for ten consecutive days now, but I saw a glimpse of myself in the sideview mirror today and I thought to myself, Thank God I married young. Because, seriously? I don’t know how twenty-seven (almost twenty-eight) year old me would fare attempting to attract a husband. [...]
ufck
Today, was not a good day. Which actually makes the day sound a hell of a lot better than it was. 1) I’m not even going to go into detail about what I think might have happened today because the thought of it is just completely traumatic and horrifying (not to mention the details of [...]
another day, same story
As I alluded to last night, my bp has been pushing (and sometimes crossing over) the high end of normal recently and I’m starting to feel like I’m out of excuses as to why. I thought about taking advantage of my standing blood test orders this past weekend but to be honest, I’m scared. I [...]
something’s gotta give
My least favorite relative is threatening to come for her monthly visit and yet has not had the decency to show up on time. Therefore I have spent much of the weekend doubled over in pain, feeling nauseated and sort of like someone is trying to literally rip my organs out of my abdomen. And [...]
clearing my throat
Something I’ve always had a lot of trouble with is trusting that the Lord is leading me. I am a well-documented control freak in many respects and most of the time I just feel helpless if I don’t have A Plan. Which is why this whole thing with my career/work is driving me completely batshit [...]