I have all these posts saved as draft from the past couple weeks. My thoughts and feelings are still sort of all over the place – sad, thankful, bitter, angry, positive, resigned, and my meds are making me crazy moody on top of it. Isn’t my husband such a lucky man? (And trust me, you don’t even know the half of it).
Physically, I feel both *better* but also awful. The meds appear to slowly be doing what they’re supposed to but the side effects…oh the side effects. What they are doing to me physically and psychologically is pretty nasty. I was lucky the last three times and had minimal issues but I guess my body just decided that four is one too many times to be doing this. I’d tell you about them, but I don’t necessarily know that I need to remember all of this later.
Anyway, I’m still (slowly) figuring out what I want to say about all of this, because there’s a lot, and a lot of it doesn’t make sense, especially right now when I’m in this prednisone fog, but I’ll continue to mull it over.
For now, let me write about something a little more tangible, a project I’m putting in place for myself in anticipation of being able to stand for more than five minutes at a time again at some point and lifting a small package without getting winded! Hooray for reachable goals (hopefully). The last time Paul and I went to Asia I tried dragon fruit for the first time and loved it. We’ve been finding them at a few of the Asian markets near my parents house and when I was googling how to prepare them I found out that they are actually relatively easy to grow in a range of climates since they’re cacti!
I have never grown anything in my life. Mainly because I am not good at tending to things on a schedule…and I don’t like dirt…or being outside much. But, for some reason I really want to do this, so I bought a bunch of seeds of ebay (50 of the purple flesh and 50 of the white flesh) and we’re going to Home Depot today to pick up some gardening trays and cactus soil. I don’t know if I’ll start working on the seedlings right away since I’m still not feeling that well most of the time, but hopefully I can get something growing soon!
I feel really old that I’m getting so excited about a cactus growing project. Heh.