{"id":690,"date":"2013-03-04T20:19:22","date_gmt":"2013-03-05T04:19:22","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/transcended.net\/?p=690"},"modified":"2013-03-04T20:19:24","modified_gmt":"2013-03-05T04:19:24","slug":"brain-dump","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/transcended.net\/?p=690","title":{"rendered":"brain dump"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>First off, thank you ladies for all your encouragement \ud83d\ude42  T and I did indeed make it through our first week alone together but we were sure glad to get Paul back home for the weekend!<\/p>\n<p>Today I realized I did something incredibly dumb.  I started my state disability claim online back when T was still in the NICU but apparently didn&#8217;t actually submit it.  I finally remembered to check on the status today and realized it was still sitting in drafts.  <\/p>\n<p>Crap.  <\/p>\n<p>I submitted it.  It said something about needing to submit between 9-49 days after the disability began or you &#8220;may&#8221; lose benefits.  <\/p>\n<p>Double crap.<\/p>\n<p>I was already feeling stressed today because for some reason I started thinking about whether or not I&#8217;m going to be able to take the extra eight weeks I&#8217;ve been hoping to and how if not I&#8217;ll be back at work in less than a month.  <\/p>\n<p>Then I noticed that T had two petechiae spots on his leg and his hematologist said to call if we noticed any.  I&#8217;m not overly worried since it&#8217;s only two spots and everything I&#8217;ve found online seems to refer to a &#8220;rash&#8221; but still&#8230;I&#8217;m worried.  And the doctor never called back.  Plus he&#8217;s been doing this weird wheezing gasp thing when he nurses and sometimes afterwards which just has me worried.  <\/p>\n<p>Oh and today Paul came home and the first thing he said was how he was looking up why he&#8217;s been having more ruminating thoughts lately and realized he&#8217;s really stressed out.  Which I already knew because he&#8217;s been constantly go, go, go nonstop pretty much since the day T was born but still it sucks to have confirmation of that.  He comes home and he cooks and then he starts organizing and reorganizing the house and it&#8217;s just not healthy.  I keep telling him to let things be a little messy but it&#8217;s like he literally can&#8217;t.<\/p>\n<p>Anyway, I&#8217;m going to call the state disability office tomorrow and find out what my chances are of not getting paid any benefits at all and if so how the hell I explain that to my company which expected me to apply.  Ugh.  I can&#8217;t believe I did that.  <\/p>\n<p>FML<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>First off, thank you ladies for all your encouragement \ud83d\ude42 T and I did indeed make it through our first week alone together but we were sure glad to get Paul back home for the weekend! Today I realized I did something incredibly dumb. I started my state disability claim online back when T was [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[20,1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-690","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-baby-t","category-navel-gazing"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/transcended.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/690","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/transcended.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/transcended.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/transcended.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/transcended.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=690"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"http:\/\/transcended.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/690\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/transcended.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=690"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/transcended.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=690"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/transcended.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=690"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}