So the last few days have been a bit of a roller coaster. A very slow, very predictable, but very unpleasant roller coaster. <\/p>\n
On Monday I visited Dr. Kidney who seemed only slightly put off that I have yet to completely wean T or start any of my meds as had been agreed upon during our previous visit a month earlier. He understood that between T going to daycare due to my mom (his primary caregiver during the day) off in a foreign country for two weeks, it was just not the greatest time to deny him the b0ob. <\/p>\n
The plan then became to finish weaning T, stat, like in the next few days and switch meds and then see him in 5 or so weeks. <\/p>\n
Well, yesterday morning when I woke up, I woke up with a raging headache. I took my blood pressure and it said 169\/105. And I freaked the f*ck out because, um…169\/105. There was much googling of hypertensive emergency and crisis and the conclusion of my google-ing is that I was close but not quite at the cigar. 180\/120 seems to be the “GET YO ASS TO THE HOSPITAL IDIOT” threshhold and I was not quite there yet. So I just cracked into the supply of blood pressure meds that my doctor had been urging me to get onto and realized that this was it. I was unceremoniously giving up breastfeeding because I was suddenly terrified of stroking out at work. Legitimate, but I still felt pissed and depressed that it wasn’t under MY terms. <\/p>\n
Anyway, my numbers have gone done steadily (spoke with Dr. Kidney last night and he said I should be much better by today.<\/p>\n
The baby seems mildly upset. There are times where he clearly wants to nuzzle into my chest and these moments make my heart shatter and break into a million tiny pieces because…I…..can’t. Wahh.<\/p>\n
But really, other than that he seems totally fine. Because let’s be honest he’s a happy little dude and not much seems to bother him. Except eating. Which he seems to now hate with a fiery passion. But that’s a related post for another die.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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