When my mother passed away, I was silent. I couldn\u2019t even let my best friends know, couldn\u2019t acknowledge with words what had happened. Maybe I felt like if I didn\u2019t say it I could still pretend.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I barely cried, crying would be an acknowledgment that something bad had happened.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
For the last three weeks I have had moments of sadness that I quickly push away. \u00a0You see, it\u2019s not real.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
But today I can\u2019t stop the tears from flowing. Today we are picking up the keys to our new home and it hit me that my mom will never see it. \u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Today it\u2019s real. Today, the first big life event that I face without my mom at my side. Is this what it will always be like from now on? Will every happy life event also be tinged with sadness?\u00a0<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
When my mother passed away, I was silent. I couldn\u2019t even let my best friends know, couldn\u2019t acknowledge with words what had happened. Maybe I felt like if I didn\u2019t say it I could still pretend. I barely cried, crying would be an acknowledgment that something bad had happened. For the last three weeks I […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[23,6],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-844","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-fuck-cancer","category-well-that-hurt"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/transcended.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/844","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/transcended.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/transcended.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/transcended.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/transcended.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=844"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"http:\/\/transcended.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/844\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":845,"href":"http:\/\/transcended.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/844\/revisions\/845"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/transcended.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=844"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/transcended.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=844"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/transcended.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=844"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}