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Re: divorce
Don’t worry, Paul and I are still the same nauseatingly perfect couple we’ve always been.  But last weekend I heard of the first divorce (that I know of) from my high school graduating class.  The background on my relationship with this person is, um, complicated, for lack of a better word but the news is nevertheless depressing.  From what I understand the marriage lasted less than two years, I have no idea why they broke up nor am I friendly with anyone who would know (although the gossip grapevine from my high school is still functioning quite well so I may hear some condensed, possibly inaccurate version of it years from now).  Despite what has happened in the decade since we graduated from high school, I once considered this girl to be one of my closest friends and I really am sad for her.  No matter what happened, I’m sure no one envisions signing divorce papers as they walk down the aisle.  Everyone must believe it’s going to last forever, at least long enough to say “I do” right?  To have it end so quickly must be difficult in it’s own way too for all the judgement it brings.  (But I won’t lie, there is a part of me that is speculating wildly, I’m not that mature, okay?).

Re: birth
Another one of my closest friends from high school, who was in my wedding and I was in hers, just celebrated her two year anniversary in November and gave birth to their first child exactly a week ago (a gorgeous little girl).  The juxtaposition of the lives of these two is so…poetic?  Is that the right word?  Beautiful or ugly, life continues. 

Re: bedside manner
I started watching Teen Mom 2 because I apparently really enjoy feeling like LIFE IS COMPLETELY AND UTTERLY UNFAIR.  Ahem.  Aside from that though, I actually really like Leah and Corey, mainly because they seem like good parents and I thought Corey was one of the only guys that truly manned up on 16 and Pregnant.  (I had to stop just now and stare at that sentence for a minute.  Yes, I watch that crap.  My life is sad.  Stop judging me).  BUT ANYWAY.  I was watching the part where Leah has to take one of the twins to a specialist and after the examination the man just sort of starts to rattle off the things he sees that are off about the development of this sweet little baby.  Leah is clearly in shock and he obviously has no interest in any of that as he tells them that someone from his “staff” will call them to set up an appointment and then rushes out the door.  The scene was just so real.  As great as my doctors have been I could definitely see a bit of them in him.  Especially Dr. Kidney.  He’s certainly not mean or unkind, just very clinical (I’ve found specialist tend to be vastly more this way than GP’s for obvious reasons).  Which is hard sometimes because it’s all very personal to you after all. 

Re: spam
I have been getting a lot of spam comments in a foreign language recently. I guess that’s a change. I’m still not sure what it is about a wordpress published blog that attracts the spam comments but if anyone has any tips on how to make it stop…help…please…

Re: 8
Also known as the number of pounds I have lost since mid-December.  I readily admit that it has not been done in a healthy way but oh well.  What’s done is done.  Six more to go.  I have been working on the whole appetite thing with lots of fruit and forcing myself to eat a few bites more than what feels comfortable.  Still haven’t made it onto the treadmill at all, but I’m, uh, seriously considering it.  Soon-ish. I’ve cut down the red meat and dairy but only completely eliminated it as of this past weekend. I’m thinking it may need to become more of a general cleanse though (although is there a point when you’re taking so many pills that it becomes pointless?). 

Re: other progress
I read (for fun). I practiced a bit of piano last night. Still tutoring. Been hanging out with people a little too much if you ask me.

Re: other fail
Have not contacted the acupuncturist (or stylist for that matter, I know a haircut should not be an annual event, but for me, it is). Can’t think of anything nice I’ve done for a stranger yet so far this year (unless tipping a cabbie who totally didn’t deserve it counts?). Have not visited any churches (I won’t even ask if thinking about it counts).

Re: addiction
The am.bien is not working like it used to anymore. The end. I’m doomed.