this is why it’s better if i say nothing when i’m like this

the wingless one / April 5, 2011 / No comments

I feel like I’m carrying a dark cloud around me these past few days.

I am anxious.  Anxious to the point of chest pain and dizziness.   I’m so freaking lame.  I know this.

This afternoon, I debated with myself the merits of popping one of the ati.van they gave me at the ER last summer but decided against it.  I figure I do more than enough medicating of all kinds, no need to add something new to the mix. 

Most of this is presently centered around work since that’s the easiest thing to completely flip out over.   Especially when I feel so tired and fogged over.  I feel like I’m not being very good at my job right now and I fucking. hate. that.

But the root of the anxiety?  I blame that on good ol’ Aunt Flo. 

I feel like the opposite of Charlie Sheen….losing!

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