Another hectic, chaotic and above all, another change-filled week at work to follow the last one.
Long story short?
I lost half my team this week.Â They moved onto better opportunities so nothing to be sad or disturbed about on that front, but well, change always makes me uncomfortable.Â I know this makes me a total lame-o, but I’ve always been one of those people who approaches major changes in life with a weary suspicion as opposed to exuberanceÂ and/or excitement.
Although part of me does wonder…
In my last post, I was sort of all but flat out asking God for a sign, don’t you think?Â I don’t know if that came through, but I was really praying last week, is this job right for me?Â Is this what I should be doing, not even long-term, but even right now?Â I was starting to really wonder if maybe the time was here for me to seriously start thinking about whether or not this is good for me – mainly because I was starting to feel like it probably isn’t.
But all the things that happened this week?Â They felt like doors opening for me without me even having to move.Â Doors I still don’t even know if I want open, but nevertheless doors that seemed to have been blown wide open by this crazy breeze called life.
So maybe this is my sign?Â Not the one I expected, but still, maybe this is it?
I’m still not convinced that this is what I’m meant to do for the rest of my life, but I do recognize that especially when it comes to my career, God has always spoken pretty loudly and clearly.Â Things have always just gone inÂ a direction where things have ultimately worked out for the best – that is of course unless I’m completely wrong and have actually gone done a terrible path that will actually ultimately lead to an early demise and lots of misery.
I don’t know!!
Why can’t I just be happy about good things happening?Â What the hell is wrong with me?
Don’t answer that.