You know you’ve had a bad day at the office when you find yourself huddled in a stall of the public bathroom, praying for the strength to go back out and make it through the last few hours before you can run out and grab a drink.
My acupuncturist clearly does not approve of my job, she has made several references to the fact that my job is stressful and then separately from that that my disease is DEFINITELY triggered by stress. Each time she brings this up, I agree with her and then do the, “what can you do” shrug. Because seriously?
What can I do?
I feel stuck. I feel like I should be grateful to have my job at all. And I feel bad that now that I have it…maybe I’ve come to realize it isn’t what I want after all?
There are definitely parts of it I really enjoy and like. And then there are the parts that have me twitching and literally hiding in bathroom stalls.
I feel like I’m reaching some kind of breaking point and complete and utter meltdown is right around the corner.
Or it could be hormone since good ol’ Japan (think of their flag) is probably on its way.
Who really knows?
((hugs)) Thinking of you and praying that serenity prayer helped!
Thanks Hillary, it actually did help a little bit but man I cannot wait for this week to be over..