I’m freaking out in a major way right now.
I started feeling really down about our chances over the weekend because I wasn’t feeling anything out of the ordinary. No sore bo.obies, no out of the ordinary sensations, just normal normal normal. I knew it was early but for some reason I just started feeling like this is not going to happen this month.
However, at work today, I started thinking, maybe I should just go ahead and test since I’m seeing my nephro today anyway and on the very slight chance I saw anything I could ask to have a blood test done.
I held my pee all day for the last four hours of work and as soon as I got in the house I ran upstairs, peed into a cup and dipped the test in. I really, truly expected to see what I’ve always seen in the past – the test line and stark white nothingness. Especially since I’m only 9dpo, I figured the chances were slim of seeing anything even if I do get pregnant this cycle.
I waited about four minutes and looked at the test. At first glance, I was like meh, negative as expected. But then I looked a little harder and took my glasses off and put it almost up to my face. I thought there was something really faint there. I ran out of the restroom to the window and stared at it under the sunlight. A line so faint that I really couldn’t tell if it was just that I’d been staring so hard at the test line that I was seeing a line where there wasn’t one.
Commence massive sweating and freak out. I called my doctors office to see if they’d let me come in early to take a blood test but they said just to come in at the appt time and if it makes sense they will order one for me then.
I took a picture of it for my friend EndoJourney to inspect (she confirmed that at least the line is not in my head, but now I’m like wait I took that pic after ten minutes, what if it’s an evap line?!?) and couldn’t figure out why the picture was so blurry until I realized I didn’t have my glasses on. As you can tell by this incredibly disjointed post. I am freaking the fuck out right now. Please, please, please don’t be a ghost line or any other kind of messing with my head line.
Leaving for doc now. Hopefully will have something better to post later.
What?! Any more news?! That sounds very hopeful!!!