So, Dr. Kidney went ahead and ordered bloodwork for me but since it was so late in the day we won’t have the results until tomorrow.
🙁
On the bright side, my blood pressure was excellent, my urine had very little protein in it and my complements were stable. My doctor even said that if I am pregnant that could be a reason that my bp seems lower than usual. Interesting.
On the way home I was seriously considering stopping at Wal.greens to buy every single brand of pregnancy test I could get my hands on. I saved the cup of pee (gross, I know) so I figured I could dip each one in it and see if any others showed positive results. I called Paul and he said that I was nuts and just to wait for the bloodwork to come back so I drove home.
But once I got home, I really felt like I needed to test at least one more time to make sure it wasn’t just a defective test, so I ripped open a second FRER from the same box and boom, another extremely faint, am-I-crazy-or-is-that-a-line line. Paul confirmed that he saw something but he was still pretty skeptical despite my insistence that any line is supposed to be a positive.
I thought that second test would put my mind at ease, but no, suddenly my mind started jumping to the fact that maybe the entire box of tests was defective. I decided I needed to use a test from another box and Paul really thought I was crazy but indulged me and drove me to Wal.greens so we could buy another box of FRERs.
I got home, ripped the box open and dunked away. Three minutes later, there it was. Another ever so faint line. Paul was still not sure it meant anything. He asked why I didn’t let him see the test window before I tested so he could be sure he was really seeing something. I didn’t have a good answer, other than, shall I rip open another test? He said no.
But I feel fairly confident that I’ve stared hard enough at enough negative tests over the past few years that there was definitely something.
I seriously can’t believe this is happening but I don’t want to get too far ahead of myself. It’s early and unfortunately I’ve been lurking in the IF blogosphere for long enough to know that seeing a positive doesn’t necessarily lead to a happy outcome.
Earlier when I said I didn’t have any symptoms, I guess that isn’t necessarily true. Strangely enough what convinced me to test today was the rain. Normally when it is about to rain I know ahead of time because I feel queasy and my joints ache. So when I went to go get lunch today and was greeted by a surprise downpour it made me wonder. I read (because yes, I googled the crap out of “early pregnancy symptoms”) that there is something called early pregnancy factor which is produced after fertilization and that this EPF suppresses the immune system. Could it be that my lupus wasn’t acting up in the rain because of the EPF? That’s what I’m hoping anyway.
My doctor’s office opens at 9am and according to my lab they should have the results first thing. Fingers crossed and praying that this is it!