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It still hasn’t really sunk in that in 35 weeks there might just be a little one in our home!  It’s still all pretty surreal at this point, especially since I’m not having a ton of obvious pregnancy symptoms.  However, I figured it might be a good time to start tracking the changes in my body, maybe it will help calm me down in a future pregnancy (assuming all goes well with this one).

Weight gain: As of this morning, none.  I weighed 108.6lbs when I got on the scale this morning.  However, I am now 110.8lbs, pretty sure this is just due to bloating.  I think my morning weights are probably going to be more accurate so I’ll probably go off of that going forward.  Normally my weight fluctuates pretty wildly so until I see some significant weight gain (i.e. 5+ lbs) I wouldn’t be surprised if it swings up and down.

Symptoms: I’m definitely getting some pregnancy bo.obs already.  Not to the point where I need a new bra or anything, but I can feel the difference.  Also sore bo.obs and ni.pples but the intensity of this seems to change every day which kind of freaks me out.  I’m pretty exhausted at times but this could also just be lack of sleep.  And I’m having really vivid, crazy dreams, mostly ones that would probably be considered nightmares or at least not pleasant.  I’m very bloated all the time (at times it looks like I already have a baby bump – like right now!) and gassy some of the time.  I have had a bit of nausea and the feeling like I’m going to gag in the mornings, but that was something that tended to happen long before I got pregnant so it’s really hard for me to attribute that to morning sickness.  I think it’s mainly because I don’t eat enough for dinner and get overly hungry by the time I wake up.  Not much cramping-wise, I do have little twinges, almost like a pinching feeling, it happens on both sides and sometimes in the middle.  I also had a bit of a bloody nose last week and also, er, a little flare up with hemorrhoids which caused a bit of a panic one morning last week (until Paul asked me to check where the blood was coming from before I started weeping).  (Yes I have an issue with hemmorhoids ever since my medication didn’t agree with me during my last flare, super sexy I know, but that is why we have a washlet now).  As I’ve mentioned before, perhaps the oddest symptom I have is how not achey my joints feel despite the fact that I haven’t been sleeping much – normally if I don’t get at least 7hrs per night I pay for it with swollen or painful joints the next day, but I’ve only been getting maybe 5-6hrs a lot of nights these past couple weeks and almost no joint pain to speak of.  Maybe I should have done this whole pregnancy thing sooner, eh?

Cravings: This baby definitely takes after it’s daddy.  Normally I enjoy my sweets but in the past week or so sweets have not sounded very appealing to me at all.  I want salty, spicy and sour.  Yum.

Questions: I’m having the first of three visits I’ve scheduled with three different OB offices this Friday and I’m afraid of having the pap smear done.  I know that for the most part the medical field does not think there’s a connection between pap smears and miscarriage but the idea of bleeding and cramping afterwards, even if it’s considered “normal” is just too much to bear.  I don’t think I can mentally make it through something like that and so I’m seriously considering turning it down.  The problem is I haven’t had one since August 2010 so it has been almost two years and I should be getting one.  But, from what I’ve read, even if it comes up abnormal nothing will be done to treat it while I’m pregnant anyway, so I think I would rather just have it done after the baby is born.  Thoughts?