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There are posts that I want to write, in fact, posts that are not about the creature growing inside me. Well, they’re mostly not about that. But the only time I seem to have the motivation to write them is when there’s pretty much no feasible way of making that happen, like when I’m in the car or at work or between sleep cycles.

Whenever I actually sit down to write all I want to do is update how this whole pregnancy thing is going because that’s pretty much what occupies my brain 75% of the time these days.

Today, I think I felt the kiddo for the first time. I was lying in bed after work when all of the sudden it felt like my uterus was pulsing. It stopped after maybe about five or ten seconds but I continued to lay perfectly still and I even muted the sound on the TV (why? I don’t know?) but that was it.

Just yesterday at my appointment with Dr. M (where we got to see the kiddo wriggle, flip and wave his arms at us like he was actually a person or something!), Dr. M said that I had an anterior placenta which I knew meant I probably wouldn’t feel the little guy for quite a few more weeks. So I really couldn’t believe that was it until I messaged EndoJourney about what I had just felt and she said that’s how she’s heard others describe it! I’ve always heard that it feels like gas but if she says others describe it as a twitch/pulse/popcorn popping I’ll take it! It really was an unusual feeling and I didn’t have to fart and my stomach wasn’t rumbling so I don’t know what else it could have been! It was our little one saying hi 🙂

It wasn’t until a couple hours later that it really, really hit me. I felt my baby move inside of me. For years the mere thought that I might never feel such an amazing, miraculous thing would drive me to tears and today it just happened while I was watching Gangland after work. Like it was the most normal thing in the world.