My last few days of devoting 100% of myself to my baby boy are dwindling down.
It’s been a hard week because we seem to be in the throes of a sleep regression but I’m still so grateful for these days and aware of how lucky I am to have had all this time to get to know this wonderful little man.
Today I decided that I will not focus on how sad I am to have to be away from him for hours at a time, day after day. There is still so much for me to be thankful for and I should be focused on that.
On a Christian radio station, I once heard the refrain, “What if tomorrow you only woke up with what you remembered to thank God for today?” and I’m trying to remind myself of that as each of these last few moments of maternity leave slips away. I know it’s going to be a challenge to feel that way when I’m dragging my butt up at four in the morning next Monday.
I’m thankful to have such a perfect little baby, for the privilege of being his mommy, to watch him grow every day into the man he will one day be.
I’m thankful to have a mother who is willing to make a not-easy journey every day to come watch him so that I know he’ll be in the care of someone who loves him almost as much as I do.
I’m thankful for the job that allows me to provide for my family.
I’m thankful for my wonderful husband and that he also has a great job that provides for us. And that he knows how important it is to provide emotionally as a father and a husband.
I’m thankful for how my health has held up despite not having been able to take the best care of myself these past few months.
I’m thankful for the friends and family that have supported me along this journey called life and motherhood.
I’m thankful for this wonderful life that God has blessed me with even though I don’t deserve it, never have and never will.