The office manager talked to me about my salary again today...it's not looking pretty. I think I would make more working at In-N-Out Burger. Possibly quite a bit more. But this job can offer me connections I would never be able to make without it. So I will be living very close to the poverty line for at least the next 6 months =)

Like everyone else I've been thinking about graduation a lot lately. It hits me in waves. I'll be at work doing some brainless task when all of the sudden I realize that in a few short weeks I will basically be out there - in the real world. It's the beginning of the rest of my life. And there's no script now, there's no logical progression, there is no next step. I'm going to be just out there, I can do anything or I can do nothing. It's a strange feeling. I've been a "student" for 16 years now...two-thirds of my life...I'm losing part of my identity.

My life has been changing so much in these last few months, and I have a feeling it isn't going to get any more stable...at least not until July. Hopefully by then I'll be moved into a new apartment and all the other things that have been bothering me will have worked themselves out. It sucks being on the cusp...so close yet so far away =\ I really have to start trying a little harder in school ><