Since I'm at work but not really doing anything I've had a lot of time to wander around the office and think. What conclusions have I come to? I rely heavily on defense mechanisms...the problem is some of these (many of them actually) aren't exactly healthy. Actually maybe a better way to describe it would be "passive aggressive." I can be very passive aggressive. I won't elaborate on it but I need to do something...the only problem is I don't know what to do. I feel so stuck right now, in all aspects of my life and it's starting to get to me. It's scary because this is the feeling that always proceeds falling into one of my depression holes and I really don't want to go back there again. But I'm afraid to ask for what I need...and maybe I don't even really know what I need. Not that that would be out of the ordinary. Bah, what do I know, I'm rambling...I've been at work for twelve hours and I'm hot and exhausted and cranky and I have a sinus headache and....somebody shoot me now.