|
||||
"Being too charming was never one of my faults." - Kill Me Later
Webcam 
Mine ::
about me.
wishlist
Powered by Blogger. |
ca-thar-sis
Feeling the need to write tonight. It's weird how this site morphed into a mainly non-personal site for awhile. But today I need it to be what it used to be.
Catharsis.
I don't know what's wrong with me, I never do. Paul says I give up on life too easily, and he's right. In fact, before him I was even more ready to give up. Is it sad that he's the only thing that makes me feel tomorrow is worth surviving through? The only thing that makes me wonder if maybe the future is worth living.
When I was in New York with Helen last March I told her how I really feel about life, thinking maybe it wasn't just me. But of course, it is just me. Just me and my buddy Henry. She said it was morbid, and I didn't take it as an insult because it is. I am thankful, though, that there is now something in my life that makes me look forward to tomorrow instead of viewing it as a burden I'm forced to suffer through, like a rat in this giant wheel we call life.
Baby steps.
Comments:
Post a Comment
(c) 2001-2006 transcended.net - all rights reserved |
|||