I'm just not used to "letting go and letting God." During college I drifted very far away from Him and got used to stressing out and getting more stressed out and then having a breakdown and crying and eventually whatever was going on would work out and then I would repeat it all the next time my life turned messy. I'm starting to realize that worry is pointless. All I can do is everything within my control (like sending out resumes, being prepared for interviews, etc.) and beyond that I have to let God's will work itself out in my life. I need to really trust in Him and trust that He has a path set out for me. My recent health issues have definitely helped me see the light because I had no control. But I guess it makes sense that it was only in a situation where I was completely powerless that I was able to understand the importance of letting go.

So anyway things really are looking up, but I'm not going to get too excited until something definite comes through. And I'm also not going to worry anymore because God is in control! If you've noticed I've been talking a lot about God lately that's because He has renewed His fire in me! Also, I'm at a point in my life where I'm in desperate need of Him and His guidance so He's been on my mind a lot and whatever's on my mind is whatever gets talked about on this blog. God rocks. That is all =)