It's not that I'm scared of getting married, because I'm not, it's more about the realization that I am getting older. And when you get older you have to do things like, grow up. I have a tendency to get ahead of myself so, of course, what I'm talking about is kids. What I'm most worried about is pregnancy because I am notoriously bad at taking care of myself. I forget to take my medicine at least once a week. If Paul puts my vitamins in a cupboard instead of leaving them on the kitchen counter then I can forget about those for weeks (until I discover them in the cupboard and put them back on the counter). I never drink milk. I love soda. I've had ramen for lunch three days in a row now (three!). Am I responsible enough to have a small person completely dependent on me for life and nutrition?

But I suppose this is why Paul and I will probably wait (at least) three years before we even think about having a baby. I have to learn to take care of myself first.