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I spent the hour before my interviewing singing worship songs and praying. Praying that God would help me to realize this is not a big deal and to give me a bit of peace, which I seem to find so elusive. Ironic since my Chinese name means peace.

So I had the interview, it went...ok. Not great. Not completely awful. Solidly "ok." Paul didn't help by asking (after the interview), "Why didn't you mention that you knew derivatives are for hedging risk?!" Um, I don't know, I guess I should have but I was flustered and he asked me about my classes and I just said what we did in our classes which was arbitrage and pricing! Gah. Shoot me.

So anyway, now comes the hard part: The Waiting. It sounds like I will get an in-person interview but I know how these things work and unfortunately how it sounds doesn't so much matter until something solid is set up.

Oh God, I feel myself going through the conversation, picking at all the missed opportunities to chit chat and "connect" (Dangit! Why didn't I ask him about his experience in Paris when he mentioned how he'd love to trade places with me? GAH!). (Don't you hate it when you sit there and think about all the brilliant, witty things you COULD have said but didn't and now you can't because it's too late and woe is you, no one will ever hire you because you are slow and stupid, but talk too fast when you are nervous? Don't you?).

You know what though? It's okay. I got my feet wet again. Back in the interview groove. And looking forward to a big tub of sangria. I'm so glad it's perfectly acceptable to drink while the sun is up in Paris.

God help me, I love this city.

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Comments:

good lord i forgot about you. or at least, about paris. and now i miss you dearly. you are now friend #3 in Paris.

twitter > kitta > kitta.net made me think of you. I told her about transcended.net. telling.

# posted by  waylan : 4:08 AM

 

Hey Waylan =) You're never online anymore! I miss talking to you...I'll be back in the Bay Area, probably towards the end of May, we should hang out! I stopped by kitta.net, I like it, she's funny =)

Don't be a stranger.

# posted by  Joyce : 4:15 PM

 

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