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It must have been August 2007. I can't believe it's been two and a half years. I think that was the last really bad flare I had (excluding a mini-flare that next spring).

My feet swelled up to the point where I couldn't fit them in my shoes and the skin was stretched so tight it ached. My blood pressure sky-rocketed. At one point I think I gained about forty pounds in water weight. It was ridiculous. And also kind of gross.

For awhile I was really good about taking my blood pressure at least a few times a week (yes, just like your grandmother probably does) and then eventually I just stopped worrying about it. Last week is the first time I've had a bad reading in months, maybe years and since then I haven't had one really good reading. And I'm scared shitless. It might all be in my head but I have just felt *off* since then. I feel like I'm swelling up even though I'm not. I have headaches. My skin feels tingly and sometimes my hands feel numb.

Yes, it's probably in my head.

But I don't think the high blood pressure is. I'm getting my bloodwork done this weekend and I'm really scared to see the results. I keep telling myself it is what it is and there's nothing I can do about it at this point. But I'm praying that I'm wrong and that I am pleasantly surprised. If not, then maybe this is God pushing me to explore something else for now.

A perfect example of how impatient I am, I'm tempted to go to the clinic ahead of schedule and get my tests done early just because I hate waiting!

Labels: Baby talk, i don't feel so good