I can't seem to express just how torn I feel over all this. How sometimes I wonder if in the end this is all going to rip me apart. Painful. Tears. Alone. Reminding me of the abject rejection of high school. I don't want this to be it. I pray that maybe here I belong and spouting my crazy isn't going to be seen as unforgiveable.
Maybe someday. I won't feel like this. Shit.
Labels: can't get myself to go away